Inhumane/Immortal But Defeated LOVE

Hard as hell it’s been all this time,
don’t know if it’s love, completely dipped in wine?

The time, I remember, I first talked to you so casually,
Proud I was, my words getting appreciation, Oh! that was so silly.

Been through every hardship trying not to think about you,
Though the time, I get to live, isn’t less than a dream come true,

have been guilty enough to keep all that in a blue.
wish I could either  let it be or just make it blow.

Just to know, how do you not feel me worthy to fight for,
To have you, I could literally go fight a hundred war.

Being a friend could always suffice,
To be with you, will be my only choice.

I can’t bother you with the mind of mine,
it’s been a trouble ever since I was nine.

Wish I could spend my days, my all nights in your arm,
Cuddling with you, kissing you with all the charm.

Wish I could make those lovely lips spread for a laughter,
Making those dreamy eyes shrink to a little shorter.

Wish I could make you forget the bad things around,
with my love, the only thing that surround.

Wish I was born somewhere, sometime,
that I didn’t have these barriers so prime.

Wish I didn’t fall in love with you,
so I had nothing to loose, nothing would be due,

Wish either I was a man or you a lady,
so I would never have to hurt my heart already.

You do me a lot, that I can’t return ever,
your smile is something I would want to keep forever.

Wish you could read my mind,
Wish you could hold me from crying,
Wish you could just be mine,
leaving no space for jealousy, the sin, the crime.

It’s for your Charisma

Months, years, even decades often

aren’t enough for a bond to blossom.

With a practical head, an emotional heart,

you make anyone smile with an art.

For being a big man that you are,

I know I should not worry for too long, too far.

But seeing you hurt, makes the day go whiner,

To you, I am like a guardian to a minor.

The way, I can’t stop thinking, I won’t stop worrying for you,

In every odd and even, I wish to stick to you,

gently like a little pearl of dew.

I wish I could get a magic wand,

to vanish all the sufferings beyond.

If only you were a little less choosy,

I would’ve been the bite of the boozy.

बुझती सी वो आस

ज़िन्दगी बिता दी किसी ऐसे के इन्तेज़ार मे जिसे अपना कह सकते,
आज जब किसी को इतनी तवज्जो दे सके तो अरमान ने ही दम तोड दिया।

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माना के ज़िंदगी को समझने की समझ ज़रा देर से आई,
पर ज़िन्दगी भर का भरोसा करने में ज़रा भी चूक न की,
शायद जानते थे हम, उस लम्हे के बीत जाने का गम|
आदत सी नज़र आती है अपनी दिनचर्या मे,
दिल के इतने टुकडे हुए कि अब गिरने पर आवाज़ तक नहीं आती,
इजाज़त दी आपको जिस डगर ले जाना चाहें,
आपने भी एक पल की देर न की, मोड चले बिना जाने कि वो क्या चाहता था,
हमने भी आदतें ऐसी डाल रखी हैं,
एक बार जो अल्फ़ाज़ बने तो ज़िन्दगी पूरी साथ बितानी है,
चूक बस हमने एक ही की है ज़िन्दगी में,
भरोसा और इज्ज़त खुद से ज्यादा बाँटते फ़िरे,
ऐसा नहीं कि इज्ज़त नहीं दी आपने, आप समझ नहीं पायेंगे हमको कभी,
बस इस बात का इल्म ज़िन्दगी भर रह जायेगा,
उम्मीद तो हम बहौत पहले ही छोड़ चुके,
बस जो नहीं पा सके उसी की आस सिसकियाँ लिया करती है अन्धेरे कोनो में,
पर शायद अब उसकी भी आदत हो चुकी है,
उम्मीद अब भी साँस लिया करती है हर बरसते दिन के साथ|

P.S. Picture credits:http://trustinginbuddha.co.uk/

Recurring Rejuvenation

Anybody can bring you a present,

even without an emotion spent;

when you’re gifted a smile,

which reaches the other heart after traveling a mile;

the moment someone understands you,

that glum on your face and the teary dew;

when your sorrow seem to traverse all along,

reaching the one who cares, from the one to whom it belong(s);

To that somebody, who’ll miss when you are gone,

One, on whom you can always rely upon;

words from them cause miracles happen,

their infectious smile penetrates somewhere deep within;

When, in the world, you feel all alone,

and it seems, to you belongs none,

That’s where, someone happens to be,

to let your thoughts and soul completely free,

In all those moments, you just need to remember,

despite the endlessness, the pain is soon gonna surrender.

Her Challenge

Ever since it has made her tremble,

The terror, with a challenge held her crumble.

In most of the moments she just did fine,

Even though, she almost failed at nine.

For just somebody who lives under the sun,

Her life still had enough fun.

For every step, a new world was in creation,

She just moved ahead with every Appreciation and Negation.

Never would you find her in a hustle,

Coz somewhere she knows… it will blow like a bubble.

Gaping from her worries…she got her thoughts aligned,

Although thoughtfulness is what gets her defined.

Forever with her stayed none,

Although, a thousand hearts, she had already won.

She knows, she’s the one who stands as the foundation,

To the dreams she holds above every occupation.

A Girl behind The MIRROR

My skin, my fame, this beautiful band,

Holds no meaning in the Nature’s land.

Judge me not for my color of sand,

The struggle of existence held it tanned.

Judge me not for my imperfect smile,

The struggle with manipulated truths held it twisted all this while.

Judge me not for the words I lay,

Sometimes, I refrain from thinking before I say.

Judge me not if I don’t fit in here,

Whether I feel good, is all I care.

Why do you keep moving without the end known?

Pause to look around, & hear your nature moan.

 

A restless mind

Embracing the calmness she would have lived,
With a storm within, if he wouldn’t have arrived.

Entering her life like a breeze,
He broke her calmness apart.

His presence she never felt was forced,
For he was a gentleman in every course.

She knew he was skeptical within,
But turning her heart off was difficult to begin.

She wanted to talk more for hours,
But burries deep the desires under a thousand covers.

With some suspicion that would grow,
She would fight within and not let him know.

In him, someone precious she has got,
Who smiles like a baby with a goodie she had bought.

And feeling that she might not have him forever,
Glums her day with sorrow like never.

Little did I know

Today again I am crying, making my pillow wet,
I wish I had a button to get it all reset.
Thrice to you “I Love You” I say,
You said it’s awesome to feel this way.
For, you never had to move away without saying,
Leaving me here cursing my luck and praying.
I remember my promise which had to break,
For my emotions my everything was at stake.
I wish you never had to worry about things around,
So beside you I would have ME found.
I said once that you may never show your face again,
And you embraced it maybe with a little or no pain.
I wish you persisted for hours much longer,
And had our love grow stronger.
I wish to dial you again and again,
But in me your sacrifice has just left a villain.
I feel guilty to have not stopped you,
All I could see was the right thing to do.
It’s rare that, my feelings, I show,
Little did I know that in me you flow.

When the Cloud meets the Wind

Full of hope the cloud grew white,
Trying to penetrate it came the light,
Said with a whisper “What’s wrong & what will be right?”,
“It’ll be fair if you stay till the night”.

“Pause the talk and just let it be”,
Holding the rain he(cloud) waits desperately to see,
With vigour, careless she(wind) flows all free,
Nurturing by love of drizzle n breeze, their baby, the tree.

In his soft embrace she comforts herself under the moon,
He rhymes for her a melody with tune,
As the dawn arrives, says she, I will see you soon,
have to leave now till the other noon.

Heavier he felt with what her words weigh,
Intensely it had rained that day,
Till she came with him to lay,
With a promise, She’ll forever stay.

Life…myst behind the glass

Little here I can sum up in words,
Life is yet to show all its cards.

I can write about the wind that blow,
Or the sunshine which makes a plant grow.

What I can’t describe is the feeling,
How it’s been craving for another day to come into being.

I can write about the sun setting down,
Or the land that goes from bright to brown.

What I can’t jot here down is,
How it captures the misty dots’s …left for quiz.

I could have written about the waves of seas,
Or the embrace it provides to the sun in greys.

What still would have been left,
Is how it calms the breeze from heavy to swift.

How does it(sea) get all the dare all over again,
To leave it’s baby(sun) out to make the day seem more sane.